My creative side 1997 – 2002;
after coming out of deep depression
for the second of four major episodes.
As shared on my “original homepage”
in the link below.
FIGHT FOR FREEDOM
Flesh and Bone
Making us whole
Eye’s of Fury
Put a blaze our Soul
Passion and Fire
Lights the path
Set a barrier
And feel our wrath
Winds of Change
Growing stronger
The world will turn
As we will stand for this no longer
Our destiny is set
And so is our fate
Look at it closely
We’re sure to be great
Power and Strength
Comes from the heart
Breathing fire within
We fit the part
With expanded minds
and will to be
Determination builds
..An overflowing sea
We come together
To show the way
Knowing what’s right
For tomorrow and today.
THE CHOSEN PATH
Choices are given,
From them we take,
Many are wrong,
No matter, we fake.
Some are easy,
Some are hard,
Some stick, some stay,
Others we discard.
From these we grow,
From these we shrivel,
Destiny takes it course,
We can do little.
Complication and Aggravation,
Comes as it will,
Whatever the case,
We get the Bill.
SHADOWS
Creeping and Crawling
They follow me near
I turn around
And they soon disappear
Quick to group
Faster to hide
All so overwhelming
I drown in their tide
Growing in numbers
Doubling in size
I lose my grip
And listen to their lies
Torment and Torture
Testing my sanity
I fight for control
Losing Miserably
The blanket has been thrown
To blur my vision
…Cold and Damp
Is this Shadow Prison.
CHAOTIC
Chaos is a realm,
From within it I dwell,
Bold and glorious,
Claustrophobia, I swell.
Psychosis is out,
Not Schizophrenia,
Try to escape,
But it’s all within ya.
Haunted by voices,
My suffering will never cease,
I only wish to find a way,
To put my soul at peace.
From within a heaven,
Exists a hell,
Although not apparent,
They go together like gel.
Seek truth,
And find misery,
Disregard it,
And Chaos returns Blissfully.
LOST SOULS
Anything and everything,
Time is at a loss,
We all forget what purpose
We hold so very dear to us.
Days go by like nothing,
Life is like a blur,
Forgetting how to find ourselves,
How to capture him or her.
Waiting for convalescence,
Never shows its face,
Struggling for existence,
In this hell forsaken place.
Surrounded by darkness,
We stumble through the night,
In search of anything,
to guide us to the Light…
Seek truth and find answers,
Apply truth and find peace,
Enjoy ignorance and lose self,
Be stressed and lose teeth.
Then this poem was completed in 2001
THE CAPTURED SOUL
I still remember when I lost control,
And He ran ranting throughout my soul,
That was a time
When you couldn’t know me at all.
He had me asking questions
Both big and very small.
Even who you were?
And how you got to be so tall.
Those were the times
When I did nothing the same,
When I felt split
In more than one way.
When nothing seemed real
Not even today.
Everything would change,
One minute to the next,
Always blurry and distorted
As if I’d suffered some huge wreck.
Can you imagine?
Twists and turns, twisting and turning.
All in my head,
Just turn after turn.
Ohh how my stomach
Would churn and churn.
How my days would blend
And the colors would dull.
How I would ride this chaos
Like a mad bull.
Out of control,
It scorched my soul.
But now I say,
That little guys on a leash,
And He’s been tamed
And is made for peace.
With time to heal
And time to mend.
Everyday I grow stronger,
Strong like the wind.
That once mad bull
Has become a Great Ox,
One that has produced
And now tends to my flock.
I won’t forget
The one I held so long.
He’s relentless
And He’s still very strong.
He’s my best advisor
And He’s fit for a king.
He listens,
He actually listens to ME.
I could go on forever
How I’ve tamed my beast.
Tell of the mighty victory,
That has made me at peace.
But there’s only one thing
That got me out of jail.
GOD is all and GOD is good,
His Word has freed my sorry tail.
AJZ …….
March, 2001
THE CREATIVE WEBPAGE FROM 1999
https://haalpshzr9pxi05itjbu9q.on.drv.tw/AJ-1999/Index.html
To explain the picture above ⬆️. This was my first home to call my own, at age 18 in 1998. I lived here for a year in exchange for work done. I also suffered a major back injury at work this year that sent me into another deep depression made worse from excessive drinking. The rest is history and has brought me to the life that I’m currently blessed by.
For my friends in other countries.
Be encouraged, as I pray your governments, communities and families are all brought to the high moral standard that God calls us to have through proper discipleship, for the betterment of everyone. (2 Corinth 5:18-21)
To clarify, I referenced my past circumstances and depression because I pray my friends can then relate this scripture to why I spiritually write (from the heart) like Apostle Paul.
As the Bible says,
Philippians 4:11-14, ”Not that I was ever in need, for I have learned how to be content with whatever I have. I know how to live on almost nothing or with everything. I have learned the secret of living in every situation, whether it is with a full stomach or empty, with plenty or little. For I can do everything through Christ, who gives me strength. Even so, you have done well to share with me in my present difficulty.” (nlt)
May OUR CREATOR GOD and ALMIGHTY HEAVENLY FATHER bless and strengthen you all who have pure hearts forever and ever. In Jesus name, Amen 🙏
⬇️ Written on January 20th, 2024 ⬇️
Let’s ask the right questions shall we?
What has been the result of my humble upbringing and pursuit of righteousness away from generational lies and sins perversion? Well, I pray the explanation below helps someone understand why this blog has so many spiritually inspired teachings.
THE RIGHT PATH TO ENLIGHTENMENT
God’s Word says, ”If you need wisdom, ask our generous God, and He will give it to you. He will not rebuke you for asking. But when you ask Him, be sure that your faith is in God alone. Do not waver, for a person with divided loyalty is as unsettled as a wave of the sea that is blown and tossed by the wind. Such people should NOT expect to receive anything from the Lord. Their loyalty is divided between God and the world, and they are unstable in everything they do.” (James 1:5-8, nlt)
However,
Proverbs 13:13-14, “People who despise advice are asking for trouble; those who respect a command will succeed. The instruction of the wise is like a life-giving fountain; those who accept it avoid the snares of death.” (nlt)
Romans 14:17, “For the Kingdom of God is not a matter of what we eat or drink, but of living a life of goodness and peace and joy in the Holy Spirit.” (nlt)
In Jesus name, Amen 🙏
This 15min meditation adds context.
https://encounterapp.libsyn.com/give-it-endlessly-away
To go further,
I pray my example of sinner turned saint who is still a sinner living in repentance of his sinful nature, otherwise known as a “sinful death to a spiritual life” encourages everyone who learns the depths of my heart and the heights of my soul to also choose to find and follow Jesus for themselves. Especially before they or their children have to experience the types of torment I or others have expressed; until they too are redeemed by the Holy Spirit and become overwhelmed with abundant joy and godly insight, no matter their circumstances, like true Jesus followers are able to do.
LET US ALL become SPIRITUALLY WISE
The Bible says, ”This will continue until we all come to such unity in our faith and knowledge of God’s Son that we will be mature in the Lord, measuring up to the full and complete standard of Christ.“ (Ephesians 4:13, nlt)
To understand how the above process works, we should take our time reading and applying the scriptures in the Bible (on a daily basis) to ourselves because THE WORD has to completely consume our thoughts if we expect it to improve and transform our life.
When someone does these things, the temptation to sin against God’s standards of moral integrity and sacrificial love as exampled by Jesus are removed and they are given victory over those things like alcoholism, adultry, pride, addiction and even depression.
The truth is,
this is exactly how the devil loses any previous strongholds that he had on our life and we become set free from our past destructive habits or lifestyle behaviors through repentance. (John 8:36)
The problem is,
If we’re doing right by God, then those who are self righteous or refuse to seek spiritual wisdom, will NOT enjoy our company. However, when we are doing right by God and people, we are seeking His wisdom beyond the knowledge that this world offers.
As we progress in our understanding of His Word (and Jesus Christ) we can also begin leading those who are far away from Him TOWARD HIM, through loving correction and healthy challenges to seek wisdom from the Holy Spirit for themselves. (1 John 1:27)
To do this best,
We must seek the Wisdom of God as our highest priority in life. Then, we must follow the guidance it offers “literally,” if we expect to recieve any true wisdom from the Lord. So when The Bible says the following statement, it means exactly what it says.
1 John 2:15, ”Do not love this world nor the things it offers you, for when you love the world, you do not have the love of the Father in you.“ (nlt)
From the above truth, we should be aware and prepared for the following unfortunate truth.
The world (who either deny or falsely claim to follow Jesus) tend to hate True Christians who are MEEK in spirit and truly “reverently fear God” enough to enjoy being corrected by Him “and others” when they are sinning against His Holy Scriptures. (Job 5:17-19)
This is why the Bible says,
Proverbs 1:7, ”Fear of the Lord is the foundation of true knowledge, but fools despise wisdom and discipline.“ (nlt)
To truly begin learning from God, we must stop sinning in thought and action, and we also have to stop persecuting or condemning other Christians, who are giving a good testimony for Jesus, (Rev 19:10b and 1 John 3) because if we do NOT have the love of God in us, then His spirit can not teach us what we so desperately need His spirit to teach, for us to learn how to interpret His scriptures properly.
In other words, we must be reborn in the Holy Spirit and be set apart from all worldy desires of fame and fortune or social acceptance and even people pleasing behaviors.
Now, whoever reads this, should understand that this is a personal spiritual journey of enlightenment, and no one else can choose to learn for you, and no one else can teach you if you’re not willing to be taught by them.
However, at some point in your journey, you will be set free to learn directly from the Holy Spirit (instead of people, “Ref: 1 John 2:27”) because God will speak to you through your heart, when you yourself are holy, and humble to listen to Him, and His wisdom before you take the “advise” of others who do not love Him enough to understand His true spiritual wisdom. (Including MANY who are proudly attending His church but lack humility and reverence to God’s infinite insight that is unending and unfathomable. (John 5:39-43)
⬆️ This is explained in 1 Corinth 1-2 ⬆️
So, as someone progresses in their journey with the pursuit of a character like Jesus in their heart. Be encouraged to live an #adventurouslife4Christ
A soldier for Christ living an adventurous life for Jesus to reign in the hearts of everyone. 
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